Its shocking, really, how quickly all my excitement about my book can be dashed.
My sister started reading the revised stuff. It is a lot better than what it was originally, and she agrees. Shes the only person thats been here since the birth of Jacky. She likes it a lot more, thinks its a lot better.
But when compared with something I started for shits and giggles, she likes the other one more. Because its different. And it is.
So now Im doubting myself. Should Jacky really be the books I spend so much time and effort on when theyre not original (the later books are more original, she says, but the only one that really matters is the first one. If that one doesnt sell, none of them will) when I could be working on this pretty unique idea?
I dont know. Jacky is my brainchild. Ive ready plenty of blogs from authors and agents that say sometimes the only way to succeed is to give up on one brainchild, and start working on another.
I dont know what to do, and I hate that feeling. Its a feeling that makes me feel lost, and alone, and not quite frightened, but unsure. Its been so hard, battling my own doubts. Now I have doubts built on the foundation of confirmation. How do you shake something like that? Or should you even try? Maybe I should work on FBL (FAERIE BAD LUCK) and get it ready and polished, and try to get it published. Then, once Im established with that, I could shoot for the Jacky books to get their chance in the limelight.
But, if I did that, I wouldnt reach my goal of being ready to query before 2010. I only have five chapters written of FBL. Id have to finish writing it, revise it, polish it, and with school quickly approaching, and me taking a full course load, Im pretty sure I wouldnt be able to get it done.
Usually blogging helps get my thoughts in order, helps me figure things out. This time, it hasnt helped. Im not sure what its going to take to get it figured out. But whatever I decide to do, I need to decide quickly. Summer is being eaten away, and once school starts, itll be hard to get much of anything except homework done.
Meh. I need time, but time is the one thing I cant have.








thanks again
~w
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~*POKEYMAN!*~
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"You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club."
-Jack London
So, ya. I have some questions about WoW, cause it started doing something strange last night. I'll probably be on Gali today. (Got my flying form. It's too much fun. XD )
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"You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club."
-Jack London
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"You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club."
-Jack London
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